Unexpected Joy

When I first discovered I was pregnant I freaked out. I felt depressed, overwhelmed, terrified, and anxious. So much so that I went as far as to make an appointment to terminate the pregnancy. But after 24 hours of serious soul searching, several signs from the universe, and long talks with Marc, my mom, and a special couple of friends, I realized that even though none of this was planned or expected, there is no option but to have this baby. I'm fortunate beyond belief to have Marc by my side, my parents living in the same city, health insurance, and the best friends a girl could have.

As soon as I realized that we were keeping this baby, I felt an overwhelming sense of joy. Joy like nothing I've felt in years. I feel like I have a new and amazing purpose. I have new motivation to live the best life possible so that my child will have the best life possible. I feel excited about working my ass off to break into the Austin theater industry. I feel excited to work hard at my job so that I might work my way up in the hospitality industry and provide quality to service to my community. I want it all. I want a family, a career, and reasons on top of reasons to grow and better the quality of who I am and what I have to give. I just feel so good. And different. Boy, do I feel different.

Baby is on it's way. Marc and I are ecstatic. There's a good chance that baby's birthday is going to be 01-01-11. How cool is that?